they're sending my mom to New York for a week in aug. damn, im jealous. i want to go to NY. and then they'll be sending her to Sydney in oct. lucky bitch!

it has come to my realization that i subconsciously make an effort not to get too close and attached to people. i do not believe in Forever. maybe its the fear and feeling of losing everything in the end. savour all of what you have. both ways, you'll still lose out. our past plays a part in moulding us into what we've become today. i've got a friend who plays it in terms of revenge. however, i still do not think it is good enough a reason, or should i say excuse, to make up for his actions, and all that's lacking.

what is with people and popularity. "they only invited all the cool people to their party" . "im gonna start hanging out with all the cool people like you." 'what the fuck' is just playing in my mind, stuck on repeat. clearly enough, there are people whom we can and cant hang out with, due to major personality clashes. i cant click with many people, but that doesnt mean their not my friends and are not worth acknowledging. if you take a step back, you'll closely realise that everyones the same.people who label and judge others without even knowing anything, are then not worthy.

enough of rants. school was pretty alright. its freakingly cold. band at union house was good. free hotdogs. nice moccha. its cool to have a 7-11 located near your school, coz we all end up sneaking there buying junk during lessons. kids below 7 are stupid.

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and you do know that im fuckingly sorry rightttt.. but once again,

HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST ZHANGSTER!

are you still all muscles dude?

are you still that vain guy always worrying about your hair?

(we look freaking young man my god.)

are you still that guy i used to know? do you still sing? do you still game? are you still the one the gets the party started like 4am in the morning after sudden spures of energy? you know i love you stillllllllllllllllllllllll (: hahahahaha.