BLACK BALLOON.
it took me this long a time here, to finally breakdown.
the impact of a voice, that very second.
this has been one of the rarest moments in history for me, where i actually wish i had my mom with me for now.
im alot better, but my body doesnt want to admit it. maybe its becasue it doesnt want to face the huge pile of work load i have to do. i want to start so, so badly. but the mind thinks so much about it that i have this throbbing pain in my head all the time. i try to take a break and sleep it off, i lie on my bed and start subconsciously thinking about it, and i cant sleep because my head hurts too much. only after a long while, i finally knock off. i cant even do my work because its screaming out so loudly and i still feel kind of weak. ive lost 2kg in 3 days. im not trying to run away, but my body's just pushing me back and currently, im not strong enough to fight against it, physically and mentally, which has never ever been the case for me before.
because they won't understand;
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